finnaly happy.

is it possible? Its great i feel like iv lost so much stress. Im just happy, no more lies, no more tears, no more fake smiles and laughs. just happy. i dont know why... maybe because of the people i have surronded my self around. all the beautifull people. i love all of you, my dad my mom my boyfriend and all my friends. you guys have all helpd me through something bigger than wat neone knew, and im not gonna get in to it but i love you all. your awsome. and im happpy and its all because of you.

I loved him more than life its self, I gave everything i had, and yet... another dissapointment. So much pain for a heart like mine, but even tho iv moved on, when ever i hear his naem... it takes me back. im with a great guy... but still when he comes up... i just ... want to break down all over again. i guess heart break doesnt just last, a week, or 2 or 3 or 2or 3 months... it stays with u for a while.

 I think this song pretty much explains it

Fin'lly got over that song of ours; stopped chasin' little red sports cars,
To check the license plates an' back wood drivin' by your place.
Back makin' the rounds at our old haunts: Honky Tonks, restaurants.
An' seein' some of our old friends: it feels good to dance again.
An' I can fin'lly smell your perfume an' not look around the room for you.
An' I can walk right by your picture in a frame an' not feel a thing.

But when I hear your name,
I feel rain fallin' right out of the blue sky.
An' it's the fifth of May, an' I'm right there starin' in your eyes.
An' nothin's changed, an' we're still same.
An' I get lost in the innocence of a first kiss,
An' I'm hangin' on to every word rollin' off of your lips:
An' that's all it takes, an' I'm in that place,
Every time I hear your name.

Got someone special in my life: everyone thinks she'd make a great wife.
Dad says he thinks she's the one: reminds him of Mom when she was young,
But it's way too soon to be talkin 'bout rings; don't wanna rush into anything.
She's getting over someone too, kinda like me an' you.
An' she talks about him every once in a while, an' I just nod my head an' smile,
'Cause I know exactly what she's goin' through: yeah, I've been there too.

An' when the conversation turns to you,
I get caught in a "you were the only one for me",
Kinda thought, an' your face is all that I see.
I know I can't go back when I still go back.
An' there we are, a point down by the riverside,
An' I'm in your arms about to make love for the first time,
An' that's all it takes, an' I'm in that place,
Every time I hear your name.

So I'm thinkin' 'bout the words I left unsaid.
(Every time I hear your name.)
Stop tryin' the change the things I can't change.
(Every time I hear your name.)
In my heart I know you're gone, but in my head,

I feel rain fallin' right out of the blue sky.
An' it's the fifth of May, an' I'm right there starin' in your eyes.
That's all it takes, an' I'm in that place.
An' there we are, a point down by the riverside,
An' I'm in your arms about to make love for the first time.
An' I can't explain, but I'm in that place,
Every time I hear your name.

whoa

Iv learnd so much these past few months.

Heart break isnt easy, but it makes you ten times stronger.

I conpletely fell apart there for a while. Im doing so much better now. Iv moved on. It took a long time but i Finnaly did it. And im so happy. Im happy. Its been a while since i was able to say that and truely mean it. I learnd that i can do ... just about any thing I want. If i put my mind to it. Im not gonna let people discourge me any more or bring me down. Im over it. I know i cant trust any one but myself... but that is enough. i want to do great things, and im gonna do great things.

Give me a place to stand, and i will move the world.

"Love Never Really Wanted Me, But I Took It Any Ways"